Two-Faced
May 12th, 2004, 06:02 PM
... if youre never satisfied with what you have no matter how great you know it is? the answer is nope. therefore im a miserable fuck. hi.
i hate everything today
i hate earth
i hate jesus
i hate the movie and music industry
i hate celebs who have reality shows like "the fabulous life of..." or "its good to be..."
actually i hate reality shows period
i hate primetime television (whatever the fuck "primetime" even means, but i know its during the evening hours when all the shitty shows starring two-bit "comedians" come on and poision the people who actually watch it with their stupid cliche and overdone half hour episodes)
i hate people
i hate anything cute and furry because stupid yuppies purchase them as accessories and stick them in their handbags and tote them around like trendy fucks
i hate trendy fucks
i hate athiests
i hate agnostics
i hate kids
i hate the news, especially "breaking news" about something like a barge in iowa sinking and 2 people are missing(DEAD). noone cares msnbc. back to the coverage in iraq already, or the michael jackson trial, those are the REAL issues here.
i hate bush.
i hate the internet
i could go on forever but i wont cause i dont wanna start to sound bitter or anything. =). fuck you. anyway so i have everything. i love who i am from a distance, really. like sometimes i have out-of-body experiences when im laying in bed at night laced up on X, K, GHB, E, and every other letter of the alphabet. and i get to see myself, even in a broad sense, its all very deep, and im just fucking smug. but the truth is actually i just hate myself. i get on my nerves sometimes. i can admit it. sure i may SEEM perfect guys, but sadly, this is not the truth. im pretty fucking close though. it sucks that youre the only person you can never get rid of. this is why god and budwieser invented alcohol. and why hippies invented drugs. to them i say: thank you.
im going to switch to nursing school in the fall. this is a good career for me because i enjoy helping others. especially ones that cant help themselves. i cant wait. i want to take debate classes and just giggle and dry heave while i listen to people argue, id join in too but im female and theyd surely not take me seriously. its a mans world. i hate life. i hate people. i hate the world. thats my new slogan. like targets "expect more, pay less". which i dont understand btw. but its working for them.
so my guy friend person, hes perfect, everyone wants him, and im not interested anymore. "anymore" means within the hour im typing this. im bipolar though. so one day i am a cold fish. the next im sally sex me up. my prayers to those that have to actually care about and deal with me through it all.. this is why i hate myself a little. cause i cant control my feelings and im a bitch and he'll get tired of it and i'll just kill myself. or do massive amounts of stimulants and stay up for hours on hours typing whatever the hell comes to my fucked up little head and sharing it with an online community.
i hate the milky way galaxy and everything in it.
have you seen these pictures of whats going on out there in space people? theres a party and we're obviously not invited. fuck earth. look please: HERE (http://mgpc3.as.arizona.edu/skygazers/images/Orion%20Nebula%203.jpg)
and we get: THIS (http://www.spacewalkoffame.com/4-s-shut/htm-img/images/earth-1.jpg)
god i feel so alone goodbye.
i hate everything today
i hate earth
i hate jesus
i hate the movie and music industry
i hate celebs who have reality shows like "the fabulous life of..." or "its good to be..."
actually i hate reality shows period
i hate primetime television (whatever the fuck "primetime" even means, but i know its during the evening hours when all the shitty shows starring two-bit "comedians" come on and poision the people who actually watch it with their stupid cliche and overdone half hour episodes)
i hate people
i hate anything cute and furry because stupid yuppies purchase them as accessories and stick them in their handbags and tote them around like trendy fucks
i hate trendy fucks
i hate athiests
i hate agnostics
i hate kids
i hate the news, especially "breaking news" about something like a barge in iowa sinking and 2 people are missing(DEAD). noone cares msnbc. back to the coverage in iraq already, or the michael jackson trial, those are the REAL issues here.
i hate bush.
i hate the internet
i could go on forever but i wont cause i dont wanna start to sound bitter or anything. =). fuck you. anyway so i have everything. i love who i am from a distance, really. like sometimes i have out-of-body experiences when im laying in bed at night laced up on X, K, GHB, E, and every other letter of the alphabet. and i get to see myself, even in a broad sense, its all very deep, and im just fucking smug. but the truth is actually i just hate myself. i get on my nerves sometimes. i can admit it. sure i may SEEM perfect guys, but sadly, this is not the truth. im pretty fucking close though. it sucks that youre the only person you can never get rid of. this is why god and budwieser invented alcohol. and why hippies invented drugs. to them i say: thank you.
im going to switch to nursing school in the fall. this is a good career for me because i enjoy helping others. especially ones that cant help themselves. i cant wait. i want to take debate classes and just giggle and dry heave while i listen to people argue, id join in too but im female and theyd surely not take me seriously. its a mans world. i hate life. i hate people. i hate the world. thats my new slogan. like targets "expect more, pay less". which i dont understand btw. but its working for them.
so my guy friend person, hes perfect, everyone wants him, and im not interested anymore. "anymore" means within the hour im typing this. im bipolar though. so one day i am a cold fish. the next im sally sex me up. my prayers to those that have to actually care about and deal with me through it all.. this is why i hate myself a little. cause i cant control my feelings and im a bitch and he'll get tired of it and i'll just kill myself. or do massive amounts of stimulants and stay up for hours on hours typing whatever the hell comes to my fucked up little head and sharing it with an online community.
i hate the milky way galaxy and everything in it.
have you seen these pictures of whats going on out there in space people? theres a party and we're obviously not invited. fuck earth. look please: HERE (http://mgpc3.as.arizona.edu/skygazers/images/Orion%20Nebula%203.jpg)
and we get: THIS (http://www.spacewalkoffame.com/4-s-shut/htm-img/images/earth-1.jpg)
god i feel so alone goodbye.