I spent two weeks in a mental facility

[kahljorn]

and now I can't legally own a firearm. I think i dodged any future drafts.

[AChimp]

Were you suffering from Wiener Withdrawal? :(

[kahljorn]

5250 ;/

[Geggy]

why am i not surprised about this?

[Trippy]

you could always use a slingshot :)

[Alive]

Well you do fit the emotional profile....

[McClain]

Code 5250? Doesn't that mean you're detained for being an alchoholic with mental complications?

[kahljorn]

No. 5250 is a 14 day hold after you get 5150ed and they decide the 72 hour hold isn't long enough. 5150 and 5250 are both for mentally unstable people, whether they try to killthemselves, threaten harm on someone else or are just crazy homeless people. I have a pamplet.

[da blob]

you crazy homeless person, you !

[Mike]

Kahl what happened? You didn't try to kill yourself did you?

[Trippy]

wait? are you serious? :/

[liquidstatik]

MY SISTER'S FRIEND WENT TO A MENTAL HOME FOR A WEEK AND SHE CAME BACK WITH A WHOLE NEW LOOK ON LIFE :x

[kahljorn]

Yea I'm serious, I will scan all the pretty pamplets later.. i saved all of them. Some of them have some blaringly hilarious typos.

[AChimp]

TEH MENTALS AREN'T SUPPOSED TO NOTICE :bacos

[Sethomas]

I once spent a week in the psych ward. I used it as a chance to learn Italian. Truly fun.

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I spent 5 days locked up in the 'Behavioral Sciences' floor of the local hospital. They kept the suicidal onces in a separate section, but let us 'mingle' during certain hours.

I went in on Sept 10, 2001. I'd been living off roughly 25 vicodine, 60 mg Paxil and around 12 dt cokes a day for almost 2 years when they locked the doors. I went from all that to absolutely nothing - complete cold turkey (now I know where they got that term) - not even a friggin asprin. I spent the first night balled up on the floor having convulsions. As the morning light comes up, after enduring some of the worst acid-trip-like headtrip I've ever endured, I can barely make sense of claims that planes were flying into buildings on the TV.

A freaky ass thing, withdrawl is. It was, by far, the most intense and horrific experience of my life.

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[Mike]

wah wah wah

That's great loser, whatever. No drugs for you.

So kahl, what happened that got you locked up?

[Rongi]

I once spent a week in the psych ward. I used it as a chance to learn Italian. Truly fun.

that's sorta how i learned italian. except my experience involved getting my knuckles beaten to bloody pulps and getting fed the same speghetti dish every night. i learned italian by living with an italian family during my childhood years if you didn't catch that :(

[kahljorn]

i took 100 asprin, prolly 15 belladonnas, drank a sixpack of beer and took other random household drugs.

[Cap'n Crunch]

My grandmom calls me a coornood. :lol

[Pub Lover]

i took 100 asprin, prolly 15 belladonnas, drank a sixpack of beer and took other random household drugs.
Was this a planned suicide, or just stupidity on your part?

[kellychaos]

Spring cleaning. :)

[Perndog]

It was all of the above, wasn't it?

And it wasn't the first time either, right?

[GADZOOKS]

I once spent a week in the psych ward. I used it as a chance to learn Italian. Truly fun.

that's sorta how i learned italian. except my experience involved getting my knuckles beaten to bloody pulps and getting fed the same speghetti dish every night. i learned italian by living with an italian family during my childhood years if you didn't catch that :(


Your not a poet, what the hell?

[bigtimecow]

:suicide

[kahljorn]

it was a memorable experience...i played bingo and won a duck.

[Sethomas]

My psych ward would certainly not have let me have a duck. I would have killed myself with it within minutes.

Sometimes you just have to swallow stuff that just might kill you, just to feel alive. For better or worse, I'm mostly behind all that. Sigh.

[Mike]

Damnit you people just can't be counted on can you? Stop trying to self-destruct.

[Sethomas]

Zyprexa made me fat. :(

And for the next few days, I'll have the joys of Effexor withdrawal.

[sadie]

kahl, you didn't answer the "why'd you do it" question, and i wanna know, too. did your gma find you? :( i wanna send you a present.

[kahljorn]

I dunno, i was losing consciousness. I guess i was going crazy or something cause i would forget what happened and be like fuck my stomach hurts or id be like i cant wait to die.. it kept fluctuating between variables ;/ must've been the belladonna.
it was cool at the mental facility though because every other person thought i was a chick.

[sadie]

you still didn't answer the question. :(

[kahljorn]

I had a headache.

[Trippy]

:lol

[thebiggameover]

:lol



:(

[kahljorn]

This is what i left as a suicide note, it was a classy escape:

Seemingly falling into place when the scenary stares at you, you can feel the eyes, like congested heat pouring through shafts, till then misunderstand. The moon before the blue, before the baking sun, desolate. Feling the strikes of persistance, like the stings of memorabilia beads, the rosary screams but no one hears, there's no sweet touch, only walls. Positioned opposite of eachother, ascendant saturn, with eternal rings of afar, ofo unpredictability. Once you've arrived in the present you see eternity is but dark breaks between the icy rocks, merely shaped eliptical for a dining cart anournment. The spots before my eyes, they told me a secret of wandering stars, collapsing into themselves to serve as a reminder that time has been a facade. Social mannerisms, peace and flavor, time is spent at undiscovered reality vending machines. I took a 2/3rd. wishing for three quarters. Transcending numbers in my represantation of challenge and self strife, to bring isometry within.
Society, the representation of ennui for reptiles heritage of pigs with a manner of color, and picture. Secrets hidden between pixels, a relaxing eye can find only their shadows.
Lost within itself, swollen. Few dream of reality, a coincidental misfortune of spiritual length, all dream of identity and the crisis of finding the parcel packed self.
Half of half of half of half, the chances become nearly despotiic of failure, a gardening campaign, dividing the self, to cover the planes.


Take in mind i wrote that while i was overdosing.. i might edit it a bit.

[Pub Lover]

It's good, not a spot on Seth's, but good.

[kahljorn]

I also spent ten minutes writing mine instead of six months ;/

[Helm]

:goth

[Dole]

You have my sympathies Kahl, but it never ceases to amaze me how many people with major mental/personal problems there are on here...is this a good indicator of American youth generally? Do you all know this many people in real life with these kinds of problems, or people that are on anti-depressant type medication??
I am sure we have all had our fair share of unpleasantness to deal with in life (some more than pthers obviously), but geez louise...

[Anonymous]

Yeah, pretty much. I've never tried to kill myself, though! ;D

[ItalianStereotype]

no, you just convert those around you.

[Anonymous]

I prefer the term 'broaden horizons.'

[kellychaos]

I've read plenty of your posts and I still don't want to be a broad.

[Brandon]

You have my sympathies Kahl, but it never ceases to amaze me how many people with major mental/personal problems there are on here...is this a good indicator of American youth generally? Do you all know this many people in real life with these kinds of problems, or people that are on anti-depressant type medication??
I am sure we have all had our fair share of unpleasantness to deal with in life (some more than pthers obviously), but geez louise...
I think it's a better indicator of the kind of people I-Mock attracts. :(

[Cap'n Crunch]

HEY GUYS!

[Anonymous]

Wait, kelly isn't a broad?

[Perndog]

You have my sympathies Kahl, but it never ceases to amaze me how many people with major mental/personal problems there are on here...is this a good indicator of American youth generally? Do you all know this many people in real life with these kinds of problems, or people that are on anti-depressant type medication??
I am sure we have all had our fair share of unpleasantness to deal with in life (some more than pthers obviously), but geez louise...

Depression comes with intelligence in an egalitarian society. Being different, especially being superior, and getting pushed through the same educational system with the same social expectations as the lowest common denominator alienates exceptional children, juveniles, and young adults. By the time they have reached emotional maturity and are able to fully understand and cope with their mental abilities, being misunderstood and most likely frustrated for several years have created serious psychological obstacles for them, most often depression.

I know dozens of clinically depressed young adults. They are all smarter than average, and most could be diagnosed with the latest trendy fictional disorder, Asperger's Syndrome. They're also the type that would appear on an Internet message board.

[kahljorn]

Where's the part where y ou say I'm not smart, or put an exception. I require the exception for that post to make any sense.

[Perndog]

Oh, and kahl's just fucked up. He's definitely smart on some freakish and esoteric level, but he's completely different from what I was talking about in that post. My best guess is that kahl is suicidal because he just doesn't have anything to live for - he doesn't really care if he lives or dies.

How's that?

[Alive]

I thought 200 dollars an hour makes a person happy :lol

[Dole]

Pern: I see what you're saying, I know intelligence often goes hand in hand with depression (hence my incredibly happy nature), I am just staggered at the amount of America's youth (if this board is any representation) actually on some kind of meication for it, and attempting suicide or whatever.

[Brandon]

I think the increased levels of anxiety, depression, and alienation are an inevitable consequence of modern life. We're allowed great control over who we are and what we become, but that's turned life into an ongoing exercise in self-definition, which can be very frustrating.

Oh, and adolescence generally blows.

[The One and Only...]

Meh. Sometimes I feel like I've hit a wall and I just can't improve any farther in certain areas, which gets me depressed, and then I convince myself that I can, and I get angry at myself for not having improved yet. At that point I consider suicide as a redeeming measure and way to enter a world where improvement is irrelevant. I just can't forgive myself for failing to reach my potential.

Other times I get angry when I think about our political structure, and then follow that anger with delusions of a bloody, violent revolution which I would never really endorse.

[Helm]

Meh. Sometimes I feel like I've hit a wall and I just can't improve any farther in certain areas, which gets me depressed, and then I convince myself that I can, and I get angry at myself for not having improved yet. At that point I consider suicide as a redeeming measure and way to enter a world where improvement is irrelevant. I just can't forgive myself for failing to reach my potential.

Other times I get angry when I think about our political structure, and then follow that anger with delusions of a bloody, violent revolution which I would never really endorse.

Somewhere between the said two states I measure my penis to catalogue it's continued growth, resulting in anger due to it failing to reach it's full potential.

[Brandon]

:lol

[Perndog]

OAO: If your penis tries to kill you (or itself), don't say you weren't warned.

[kahljorn]

THAT WAS MUCH BETTER PERN DAWG THANKS G

[Anonymous]

No offense dude, but your suicide note was kinda boring.

[bsx]

you could have at least taken the time to choose someone at random to blame for it all. really, try to have some focus when you are writing, or don't write at all...that is unless you are the reincarnation of william s burroughs...and that just wouldn't make sense since he's only been dead since 1997...you'd only be 7 or so if you reincarnated right away.

"Gentle reader, we see God through our Assholes in the flashbulb of orgasm."

now that would be a great start for a suicide note...

[Spastic Colon]

Is "Assholes" some sort of allusion to something far greater like "Satan" or "The Great Sausage?"

[kahljorn]

Maybe it was directed at someone and y ou just don't notice the conotations because you aren't me. And always keep in mind, time is an illusion, and your own mind is an influenza of some kind of cough medicine.

[Jixby Phillips]

COMING SOON TO NOVIRGINSALLOWED.COM

http://www.novirginsallowed.com/comics/kahljorn.GIF

[ItalianStereotype]

bsx made me lol.

[The One and Only...]

If I were going to blame anything for suicide, it would have to be whoever is responsible for the Lion clan's existence.

[Brandon]

If I were going to blame anything for suicide, it would have to be whoever is responsible for the Lion clan's existence.
Stop plugging your shitty thread. >:

[kahljorn]

cool... i get something dedicated to me.