hon, listen, i know it's a difficult concept, but try to work with me here. denial, especially of foundational characteristics, does nothing but create confusion leading to anger and basically making yourself look like a buffoon. denial eats away at your soul. it's for your own good that you move on to acceptance of who you really are. say it with me. g. a. y. see? it's not a bad word. now, go look in the mirror and say it 36 times.
