[derrida]

I've been feeling like I've had to piss all day, and have maybe been to the bathroom at least 20 times to piss for some abnormal interval and in order to do this I have to concentrate on relaxing my muscles way more than usual. Also, a sting that seems to be localized about a quarter of the way up my urethra.

So I'm pretty sure that I released a serious amount of cum into my bladder last night after a record 11(!) consecutive orgasms. I still don't know what exactly these orgasms represent psychologically or biologically, they've happened since I was a wee one, and I don't know anything about yoga beyond downward dog, and none of my friends know what I'm talking about: the first few times I come there's a spurt or two of some jizz, and my penis stays hard and I get even hornier until I reach a proper orgasm/ejaculation and my penis becomes way too sensitive to continue (like fucking sand paper) and detumesces for a minute or so until I'm ready again.

Now, I know that cum is involved somewhere during these "ghost" orgasms because I get that feeling of fullness at the top of my balls which I'm pretty sure is cowper's gland secretions mixing with sperm and whatever else goes into making cum. However, where does it all go? I'm pretty fuckin sure it doesn't all seperate like oil and water and return to it's respective points of origin and instead retrogrades into the most convenient location. I figure I must be forcing all that cum the wrong way, pushing through the valve leading to my bladder that is supposed to stay shut during ejaculation.

Is it possible that I have some kind of hangup about ejaculation that's causing me to subconsciously cause my balls to beat the shit out of my poor urinary tract? Maybe one in ten fucks will have a normal ejaculation but it usually takes a while to get there. I also get a big rush from, uh, peeing on chicks while taking showers with them and when I was a little kid I used to get performance anxiety when I had to pee on demand. This is telling me right now that I got to see a urologist and a shrink if I want to get this worked out before I do any permanent damage to myself.

Can anyone shed some light or share similar experiences?