[Grislygus]

I usually attack myself mentally because it feels like a blanket's being wrapped around my head, then the cyclical thoughts start and they spin down, down down, down, and I get exhausted and don't want to do anything and feel like i'm going to choke on something pushing up through the bottom of my teeth, and you have to get really fucking pissed off because you switch over to anger, spin up, and spin out of that fucking deadness