[Rongi]

i mean i liked how i looked when i was thinner, it felt nice to be able to put on size 31 and size small shirts

but at the same time i just felt kind of dumb lifting weights. not dumb, mainly bored and like i had to force myself to do it. i feel like i would feel differently if i did it because i was playing sports or doing karate. because at least in that circumstance i would have a reason to want to be healthy, so i can beat people up better