[DamnthatDavid]

Well, I was irritable. And just finished a huge pizza with extra grease, which was making my stomach upset...

Edit: I posted this anxiety attack on my blog. And alot of people thought I was thinking of suicide when I refered to my firearms. This is the change I made.

At the time, I was thinking a gun was like a security blanket. You know, curl up on the couch just holding it. It is a symbol of power in todays society. And that symbol has not been lost on me. Guns are to be feared, guns are dangerous, we are taught this growing up. So if I am shaking from nerves, it makes sense to hold what everyone has been taught to fear and respect. Having it in my control makes the night seem less... dark.