Obviously you're only alive because you're scared shitless of death. I made no assumption about you: I took your own words and demonstrated the clear conclusion that you either 1) have been here for three years or more but had only lurked for the first two, or 2) you're lying out your ass. To be honest, neither would surprise me given your pathetic cries for attention, but my ninja intuition suggests that you're just a pathetic liar.
In either case, you truly are a sad child.