At the risk of excoriation from everyone else, I'm going to give you some actual advice. Don't take anything on these boards seriously. If someone insults you, don't take it personally, and feel free to give it right back (as long as you're at least somewhat interesting in doing it). There is no initiation, this is the way people treat each other. When you reply to a topic or especially when you create a new thread, be creative, interesting, and/or funny, or you will be ripped to shreds.
And you can't write worth shit. I have to read your posts three times before I can figure out what you're trying to say. Leave now and don't come back until you've passed fifth grade. See you in a few years.