Jun 19th, 2007, 09:49 PM
My hatred of i-mockery has died...
Yes, it's true. There will be no more "getting back" at i-mockery.
The main reason is because I have realized my attempts at doing so are completly futile and a waste of time and effort.
I also realize that I had a lot of what I had coming. I can now see that I looked incredibly retarted, and still do in some places and must try to correct them ASAP.
Infact, I think everything that I've endured here has just made me stronger, and helped me to learn and see where I was going wrong. It has increased my tolerance of critisism a lot, and probably a few other things that I can't think of right now.
The time is drawing near that I need to grow up. I am 17, after all. I will be 18 next year and considered an adult in many circles. I intend to move out most likely in April, or early-mid May. Perhaps even as early as March, but that looks doubtful. I intend to finally finish high-school and learn to stand on my own feet. Most importantly, I intend to socialize and make friends, which I feel I really need. I have not had any real friends in my entire life. In the time I was in public school, I rarely ever had friends over, nor did I ever visit other children very often. Then, my socialization was cut off almost completly when I was homeschooled. I was allowed to grow lazy. I was not forced to do my school work, and hardly ever did it. I sometimes wanted to do it without being told to, but then I found it depressing and promptly forgot about it. Well, this situation must change.
My grandparents have incredible negative energy between them. It's so thick, you could cut it with a knife. I feel it is impacting me negatively, and I want to escape. They have also changed. They have become strange and alien to me. I am finding grandpa to be increasingly annoying and depressing. I feel I need to live in the same town as my mom. I find she is a good source of positive energy, but she quickly grows stale. She wants me to live with her, but I feel it would be best if I didn't. I will live with her for a bit until I can get a job to support myself. I will also have to have a room-mate which I look forward to...
And one last note: As you may or may not have heard, I am no longer a christian. I have realized that the religion is evil and that the bible is the word of men. Not just any men, but corrupt ones. I want to look into other religions, and I feel Kelowna will be the perfect place to do so. I doubt that I will ever fully involve myself in organized religion even again, but I certainly wish to take a look...
Now, I will let you all interview me. Feel free to ask any questions about me you like... I will not answer questions that are intended to insult me...
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