Sep 27th, 2008, 04:40 AM
If you guys are just going to diss me all the time I reserve the right not to post.
At first I thought Tadao was the Batman who was fighting me like The Joker, but really it's a situation where he's the Joker and I'm Commissioner Gordon.
Guys, if this isn't a safe community for me to be in I'll stick to my blog and the forums who like me. The place Tadao got that photo from is a forum I've been posting at for years, but he could have easily have gotten it off facebook like the cyber-stalker he is, since I used the same picture for that display picture too.
If you're trying to typecast me as a serial killer, that's just hateful. I saw in the news the story about how the Finnish guy went on a killing spree and it made me sick. I don't even want to kill anybody, especially you Tadao, and all the other people who are mocking me.
By the way, if you think I'm a rice chaser, I like non-Asian girls too but the girls who share my hobbies who I see in Kinokuniya are Asian, and I'd never harass any girl of any nationality. I just think the otaku girl who smiles at me is cute and probably a really nice person, and I'd love her all the same even if she was white or latino or black or whatever. It's not a matter of hitting on every Asian girl in sight, I learn about other people's cultures too, and respect their beliefs. Sorry if I didn't come across that way.
This forum has a vibe to it I'm not exactly comfortable with, and its members are some of the most unforgiving people I've ever met. I'm sure ROG and Protoclown would never seek out to destroy my self esteem, they're really nice people, even though I've never met them, they never dissed me once when I commented.
I don't want to have to leave I-Mockery altogether just because of some haters who want to see if I'll snap and kill a lot of people. There's some really hurtful stereotyping going on here, especially about the disabled. Just realise that my condition isn't something that just goes away or can be cured. Even shock therapy as suggested by the hate-filled Tadao wouldn't work. It's something I live with every day. The medication helps but even that won't solve all of my problems, as drugs, even prescription ones I have to take, won't just magically solve it.
I honestly don't feel safe on these forums and I can't believe my naivete which some uncharitable people took advantage of led me to believe that somehow you would like me if I could prove myself.
That's why I'm not giving out any more information about Project Ask Out Otaku Girl or even how my mood is doing. The fact there are people on this forum who would stalk me and use postings in my blog entries as bullying fodder scares me. How much longer does it have to take before somebody does something about this?
I know I don't have a perfect record of likeableness, but I've had some stumbles in my development as a blogger and as a forum poster. My condition has been used as a reason to mock me, and that just goes against the spirit of what this site is supposed to be about. As for Tadao saying I've lost everything by his cyberbullying, I haven't actually lost anything. Any of you could have discovered my blog or my other forums I post on even by accident. It's there for all to see, as blogs are. I just think it's despicable that a group of people would gang up on me for their own amusement, laughing at my attempts to brush them off.
Tadao said "He is what he is". What I am has been severely misunderstood and subverted by the members of this forum for sick schaudenfreude over my sometimes awkward attempts to defend myself. ROG, Protoclown, even you Max Burbank, what are you going to do about this situation so that something like this never happens again? I love your site, I just don't like some of its members.