Originally Posted by J.L.
For the past two months, I feel like my life has been falling apart.... I say its nothing special because it happens to people everyday, and it just goes unnoticed... My situation, no different. Physically and emotionally, I am so drained and to be honest, I don't know how much more of life I think I can take.... I am really at that point in my life where I feel like I've given everything I've got and I've tried so hard and nothing is coming out of any of these efforts.... Right now, I'm laying in a bed at a hotel in Los Angeles, and to be honest, I feel so lonely and terrible.... I really just want someone to be here and hold me to let me know everything will be okay...and I'm going to interview at a college that my mother wants me to go to.... I think about it and I never thought my life would turn out to be anything like this.... I never really had any idea how it would turn out....but I at least expected to be happy.
Of course, saying or thinking of things like that brings me to a question and answer I was given a long time ago. Someone asked me what I wanted from life and my answer was, "to be happy." And that someone's reply: "That is the most selfish answer I have ever heard."
Just a little of what I needed to get off my mind...
I know this guy; he's got one of those obnoxious "I'M GAAAYYYY" voices.
He was popular, made excellent grades, and was friends with everyone, including the teachers. He got special treatment, and now I am laughing my ass off at his misery.
Ahhhh... It feels good to be bitter.