Nobody cares what you did in the past, nobody cares that you are sorry for it. You just suck in the present. Right here, right now, this very thread. You are a whinging baby and nobody here likes you or cares about you - just go away and don't come back. Why did you feel the need to come back? It only gets worse for you the more you post here, people like me start off not really caring, and then get sick of reading about your problems with the forum, and how you are sorry and want to be given a second chance. Then the people that started off not really caring, and just wanting you to leave for your own good, genuinely start to dislike you, rather than just going through the motions for the sake of it.
Fuck off, don't come back.
Do everyone - most of all yourself - a favour; instead of posting your "I'm sorry, I was a dick, let's start fresh
I have problems, here's my life story, stop ruining my job prospects..." threads/posts, just write them on a piece of paper that only you will ever see. You'll get less abuse that way, and just as much sympathy.
Nobody honestly thought you were a big meanie and needed to say sorry - people are just fucking with you. Nobody was genuinely insulted by you because you are a joke. A joke that is only doing himself harm by constantly sticking his hand in the blender, even though the blender is telling him to FUCK OFF again and again and again.
Oh, and congrats to add even more reasons for me to think you are a stream of piss with your last comment there. The guy probably saw how much of a whining pushover you are, then decided to slack off and waste your money. I'd probably piss in your sink while I was there.