Jan 16th, 2004, 10:56 AM
I'm so fucking pissed at myself!
Let me tell you my story.
In 6th grade, there was a really, really hot girl from another school that I used to see at this cotillion thing I had to go to every month (I can't recall just how many months out of the year it lasted). Anyway... she liked me. A lot. She always wanted to dance with me, she told me I was hot (I never really understood that)... I remember at the last dance of the year, we ended up starting off together and she told her friend "He's all mine."
The thing is, I was an idiot. I avoided her, knowing perfectly well just how attractive she was. Why? Well, that was during the time period where I still had some lingering feelings for another girl who had rejected me for 2 years. That kind of died off afterwards, because I forced myself to stop liking her.
Come 7th grade, I had to go again, and she was there. Only this time, she didn't pay any attention to me. If anything, she seemed to avoid me. We didn't dance during the entire year. I found out why, though. Her friends made me sit down with them (while she was there) and told me that she still likes me. But now it get's trickier, because she told me to leave before her boyfriend gets jealous. When I gave her the cold shoulder before, I must have also given the impression that she might as well get another man... er, boy.
We didn't have any contact in 8th grade, so that surely stifled emotions.
Come 9th grade, though, we are in the same school. I have one class with her. But I don't really know what to do. Apart from when she said "Hi, Jack" in the first day of school, we haven't spoken. Of course, I'm not one to start a conversation with a girl...
While she's rifling through boyfriends every two weeks, I can't help but wonder if I still have a chance. Apparently I could have had her for 2 years, but I didn't capitalize on it. Still... I'm wondering if I could bag her when she's come off one of her stints.
What should I do?
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