too much god

[george]

jixby hit pretty close to the truth as far as i am concerned.

i just cant believe that there is some special magical thing waiting to help me. there are just too many bad things that i have seen or have happened to me for me to believe. every bad situation i have been in i have worked my ass off to get out of. no one, with the exception of a few family members and friends has helped me. no divine intervention, nothing.

i dont feel sorry for myself, but i have learned to rely on myself. there is no magic government, or jesus, that can make things better, only people can do that. and from what i have seen, i believe that there is a thin layer of civilization, over a boiling pot of insane in this world.

and it scares me when my government is telling me to rely on the magic man to fix things when they take over a third of my paycheck as payment for THEM to do their fucking job.