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Aug 1st, 2003, 02:35 PM
Another deppression poem.
It doesn't seem like there's much to live for anymore, and I'm sure why,
I guess somewhere along the road, I forgot to cry.
The world starts to spin now, going around and around,
Even though I'm screaming, I don't seem to be making a sound.
I close my eyes, but all I can feel,
is these ropes cutting into my arms, so I guess this is for real.
My heart can stop any time it wants to, and it chooses now,
I want to explain it to you myself, but I don't know how.
I know they can see my weakness, and so now they know,
Everything is out there, everything I've been trying not to show.
I wish I could hide it, I wish I could run,
But deep inside me, I just know it might be fun.
This is what I want, but at the same time, it's not,
I've thought forever about it, inside, my emotions have fought.
Is it really going to start like this?
That friendship we had, is it something I will miss?
Or will instead, I tell you all,
Telling you all this now, my heart is in mid-fall.
The one I showed you before, the one I said wasn't you,
I lied, you see, its true.
So now you know, why I have to do this,
I hope you don't hate me for it, but it's the only chance I have, one I cannot miss.
And now as I sit here, blade in hand,
All I am thinking, is that I hope you understand.
My dying wish is that you understand what I could not,
All I have to do now is stab one spot,
and I will be gone now, to cause you no more pain,
But my emotions may still rain
Upon you from down below,
But it will never matter to you now, because you know.
And now I give you, my last good bye,
I know that you will not even cry.
Good bye. 
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Love brings pain, no matter what. Never believe that you are special, there are always more like you that can easily take your place.
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